those feelings when you want a relationship
but you don’t
but you do
but you don’t
Self- empathy/ expression
Here’s the real deal.
I’m holding a lot of sadness around the fact that I don’t really have many people to talk to here in the Antelope Valley. I’m also choosing frustration around my home life situation. My need for connection isn’t being met and I’m having a hard time finding out how to meet my needs.
I’m wanting casual friends to hang out with and maybe even one really close friend. I found I’m wanting a romantic partner because my need for physical touch (my love language) is also not being met. I’m wanting to live and have fun while being able to choose to be by myself or be in the company of those who I cherish and who cherish me. At this point in time I’m finding that this isn’t working out and I find myself alone without a lot of choice.
I have some choice; I can hang out with my dad or family, but there is only so much I can handle from them until I realize they are simply not what I need.
What I’m feeling is valid. It’s hard to be alone all the time or be surrounded by those who do not serve you. It can be easy to choose frustration and sadness around a situation that you feel does not serve a huge purpose in your life.
I love myself and I’m trying to trust the Universe with my life, though I’m allowing myself to feel these feelings.